Tuesday I felt better, but still not great. I decided to go to work though as I didn't want another day alone with my thoughts for company. I arrived at work about 9.30 and was informed I was due in a meeting at 10am. I was sitting in for someone who was ill and who had originally booked the meeting. The was about data protection and although I'm not hot on the subject managed to nail the meeting. Over the weekend my appetite had dimished but today I was ravenous; after two lunches I was prepared for the rest of the day. It was a hard day physically and more anti-sickness tablets, but I felt more motivated than Monday and I am glad I went to work. I worked almost the entire day and felt better for it, although it was tiring.
During the day I sent in my next column to the Lancashire Evening Post and also spoke to them, to check that they would spell my name right. I managed to get a lot done at work; working on some small projects, I made some progress, but not as much as I had liked too, but I keep reminding myself that I shouldn't be at work anyway, the main reason I go is so I'm not on my own at home. Part of me is dreading the time after surgery as I will probably be on my own for a lot of the time, and I'm not the best company for myself, I like to be around people. I will have to get used to that. I am ok when I am out running or riding, but usuaully I am motivated and active so can focus on the run and work through it, but being on my own inside with no activity for long periods is unknown territory and I'm not sure how I will cope. I picked up Oscar and Sid on my way home and in the evening our friends Laura and Zoe came over.
Having friends over takes your mind off things and we had a good laugh. Zoe said she would come and keep me compnay while I'm at home after surgery and we planned some boxsets we could watch. I remember when I was younger that I was intrigued by space and it's vastness and openness. I even wrote to NASA and tried to write a book about the subject as an 8 year old; NASA were very good and replied to my request sending me a big pack of pamplets and books! I didn't know this shared interest I had with Zoe, but she also likes space (the final frontier) and has loads of boxsets about space, so this will be my summer viewing.
It was a good evening and having our friends over really does help, and I don't think they realise how much normality it brings. During the day I had felt pretty bad and these odd side affects weren't getting easier, but they weren't getting worse. I am bright red in the face and Luke at work jokes that he can't tell if I'm mad or embarrassed, he tries to embarrass me as much as possible. I seem to be getting more sleep than the last couple of night's but the tiredness remains almost constant.